Today, I started back to the gym! Its so important for me to keep myself as a priority in the busyness of life. I so easily can get caught up in other things and leave myself out. Do you have this problem too? I have focused a lot on myself and my weight loss goal over the last 2 yrs. But... even though I have done well I know there is more I can do and people I can help along the way. Telling my story is going to be just 1 of the ways I "Shine in 09"!! This is an emotional journey so it will come in segments! I will also add hints, tips and healthy eating choices along the way! This is for my Peeps!! ;)
This is my story... I was just so tired of where I was at, how I felt and what I thought I looked like in clothes... not to mention the "at risk" health issues that were very apparent! I wanted to do nothing, go nowhere and least of all in the summer. I hid my pain and self disgust well! I got a little nudge from a friend and that was all she wrote! I decided that I AM WORTH IT! I am worth the effort to try... I am worth the effort to possibly fail... I am worth it no matter what the outcome. I decided to be take it slow... have patience and be happy with whatever I accomplished... no matter how big or how small the success! I did take it slow... but I was full committed! I started with Weight Watcher's... weekly meeting with some neighbors. I am ashamed to say that when I went with them I felt comfortable because I was "smaller"... so to me.. "not as bad" as them or others. Who knew I was so shallow?? I sure didn't... but was really ashamed at my thoughts. When I got on the scale and it read "the deadly number" I was physically ill. My heart was in my throat and I don't know how I held back the tears. I couldn't believe what it said... but I knew it was true. I also knew that the next week would be better... it had to be... this was ROCK BOTTOM!!
Love to you all... I pray you find a way to "Shine in 09"!